It's weird

Kittehs

I'm a social person.  I'm a very social person.  But sometimes I just need to be by myself.  It's weird, I know, but lately, I just don't feel like being around my friends.  I love them to pieces, don't get me wrong, and I know they adore me, but I need a break from them.  There are certain expectations among my friends of happiness, privacy, openness, and some tension, but all are necessary. Right now, I don't want to deal with them. So I sit on the opposite side of the dining area by myself, writing a blog, studying for my Italian quiz, reading my anthro textbook, and avoiding eye contact.
Y'know, I enjoy being antisocial.  There's a peacefulness about it.  Nobody expects you or requires you to feel or look any specific way, nobody really pays you any mind, unless they're on the opposite side of the room wondering why you're not hanging out with them.  The feeling then is that you want to come over and say hello.  I've said hello to them, therefore, they don't think it's necessary to check in on me.  What's more, the people I really don't want hanging around me will be the ones that come over first.
Why do I exude friendliness?  It's bothersome.  I have a number of people who think that I am the best thing since the invention of the toaster, and they want me to love them forever and ever and I just don't.  They're annoying, they bother me, and I want them to leave me alone.  Somehow, i just don't know how to get them off my back.  Damn.

I wish I didn't have to feel like i need a break from my friends, but I guess I do.