Waiting

I waited for the sky to open and rain down fire on my head.

It didn't happen.

I waited for the floor to crack beneath my feet and swallow me whole, never to return.

It didn't happen.

I waited for angels to sing me to sleep.

I stayed awake.

I let him love me and pretended I loved him, waited to start loving him.

It didn't happen.

I stood in a chasm and called out my name, expecting an echo.

It came.

I swam into the ocean and waited to drown.

The tide pulled me back to shore.

I waited to stop waiting.

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It didn't happen.